Lately the Lord has been asking me to surrender everything (again). I thought I had gotten pretty good at living my life surrendered to him. I have given him my marriage, my kids (very difficult for me), my present, my future and every day I choose to let his voice be louder than my own. I choose every day to lay my worries and concerns at his feet. When I look at his feet they are so large and my worries are so small (like ants that he steps on). But somewhere along the way I have picked up these nagging thoughts of worry. They include but are not limited to the following: What if’s? Will it work out? How will we do that? When will we do that? Are you kidding! How am I going to do that? I am full of questions and questions are really good. I know that the Father loves to hear questions from his kids. Sometimes I see his face when I ask questions and it shines so bright with love. It is as if the Father’s eyes are saying “Give it back to me because I want all of it and I love so much”. But when those questions become torment then the questions have crossed a line in the sand. Now the enemy has turned your nature of concern and worry into a weapon to use against you. This is the point that we need to lay them at his feet, give them back to the one that cares more about our concerns then we do. In Hebrew the word for surrender is magan (maw-gan') and this means to deliver up. God is asking us to deliver up our concerns and worry. For me this has been a process, a process of me learning to break off the lies of torment and lay them at the Father’s loving feet.
Here are some things that helped me work on my heart of surrender.
· I ask the Father to show me when concerns or worry become torment.
· I pray “Lord I give you my concerns, I lay them at your feet. I know that you love me and you will guard and protect me”.
· Remember we are walking with the Father, he is not walking in front of us or behind us, and he is walking right beside you. He cares and loves you; you are the jewel in his eyes. You are the son or daughter that brings him overwhelming joy and love.